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It's been two years… He's visited once or twice. That first year he left we talked once or twice a week. But then we just kinda lost touch. Drifted apart, ya know? Sometimes I stare at the phone… God, I'm so scared to call him. Does he still remember those times that we had? I still remember that time in the car. We were just lying down because I didn't want to go home yet. He was holding me in his arms and we were listening to Green Day. He started singing softly, his lips touching mine. He was singing to me. It felt so right, so perfect. I started to sing with him, our lips barely touching, moving in rhythm, well almost. *sad laugh* He neve

Words tumble from my mouth, this stream of syllables rolling and dripping from my parted lips. I watch in wonder as they crumble and shift away like sand, never really thinking about what I am saying. Walking around in a daze, going through life on autopilot. Seconds, minutes, hours, days pass by me. The storm swirls all around me as I gaze upon the weaving of time. Threads come lose and latch on to my arms and torso, tugging, trying to pull me into that chaotic dance. Slowly, one creeping inch at a time, I am pulled into the madness. Suddenly I awake. I see what is happening. No longer am I in that daze. The world seems brighter, the air fre

Words and feelings roll from my tongue to yours This seemingly endless dance But unfortunately time does catch up with oneself This blissful tango will have to end It's time for me to go home

When I set out that windy day, searching for ancient knowledge, little did I know where I'd end up. If someone had told me that I would end up in a cave with a dragon as a teacher, I would have thought they were crazy and would have told them so. So I set out, looking for someone to teach me the ways of nature and the speech of the earth. I went from town to bustling town, shack to run down shack, and tower to high tower. No one knew what I wanted to learn. I was wandering down a straight, dusty, trail in the middle of a lush green forest where birds were constantly and raucously twittering and screaming, when it just suddenly ended. I stopp

When I set out that day, searching for ancient knowledge, little did I know where I'd end up. If someone had told me that I would end up in a cave with a dragon as a teacher,  I would have thought they were crazy and told them so. So I set out, looking for someone to teach me the ways of nature and the speech of the earth. I went from town to town, shack to shack, and tower to tower. No one knew what I wanted to learn. I was wandering down a trail in the middle of a lush green forest when it just suddenly ended. I kept going thinking that it might have just been overgrown. I wandered until when the dark twilight started to descend I realized

How many did I kill? Alone with my guilt I sit there Shivering How many will look at me with eyes filled with hate? Or worse, fear? Will I be an outlaw in my own land? Coldness wraps its self around me like a cloak Insulating me from the outside world I just shrug off the guilt and pain Hide it away in a small corner of my mind I become hard as stone My heart as cold as an icy dagger My eyes could cause frostbite But inside I was burning I yearned to let my emotions out To be a loving person But my job wouldn't let me do that Being a warrior maiden in this land Means being alone

As I look into the calm surface of the dark pond I see not myself I see the demons within me When will I ever be free of them? When will I ever be able to walk through life And not worry about my past? The memories flow like water Back into my minds eye The picture just as sharp as it was Ten years ago The same dark chamber The same cold steel eyes Gazing into my soul The same rough hands Binding my body As it binds my defiant spirit Fear coursed through me As fresh as ever The scenes unfolding before my unwilling eyes He ruined my life As I have now vowed to ruin his He haunts my dreams My heart screams for reveng